This last week has been a full week for me. Full of thinking. As I have mentioned before, I am in a very cool, very unique time right now. I’m having a lot of fun and doing a lot of cool stuff, but at the same time there are days where I am so homesick all I do is think about home and everything and everyone I miss.
Those days aren’t fun. I can get really confused on those days and when I get like that I can easily lose sight of what’s going on in my life right now and how awesome of an opportunity I have to live and discover God and make memories. I’ll get confused about how I’m feeling and not knowing why I feel so uncomfortable and scared and lonely and out of place. Wednesday night I had an epiphanic moment(my in-computer thesaurus is my wordpress sidekick). Here’s what I feel like God told me:
There is a good reason why I feel uncomfortable and scared and lonely and out of place. It’s because nothing in my life is comfortable or familiar or comforting. I am in a totally new era of my life without anyone to provide comfort. The only thing I have that is in any way constant, familiar or comforting is my relationship with God; and I’m still choosing to neglect it. It seems so freakin obvious now. It may not seem very epiphanic to you jerks but it really was for me. I felt a way that I haven’t felt since I’ve been here. I realized that home and comfortability are not the answer to my problems. Wow.
So anyways, I thought I would let you all what is happening on a more serious not in my life. And also, I may be writing about some big news coming up within the next week. Maybe more, I will be very busy the next two weeks because Hillsong Conference is coming up, which pretty much means a week and a half of a good amount of work. Stay tuned.